It's November 7th less than 2 weeks to race day ... a easy taper weekend spent with good friends was just what my head needed. This is the fist time in all my years of triathlon that I truly feel the need to stop the outside world every once in a while. I have so many open items that will require probably even more effort than Ironman starting in December and I am unsure if my just letting it go until after the race is the correct answer however that is what I am choosing. I just want to try and enjoy this experience and allow myself to be proud of where I have come even when other things are crazy !

Recovery and taper are odd ... you think you would be totally rested and felling great but it really is the opposite. Your still tired from the last few weeks of builds and your body starts to show signs of little nagging injuries. Muscles that have not hurt all season start to hurt and it totally freaks you out. I'm pretty sure it is all mental in fact having been down this road 2 previous times I know that it will all be OK but it does get in your head but it is still hard to deal with at points !

Spending some quality time again this week with with my good friends. I've been pretty lucky to have them this time around just to keep me focused on being positive and to allow me time to be sad when I have needed. My goal the next 13 days is to Be Grateful for the journey and all of the positive things in my life and not dwell on the things I can not change at this point !

- Just something that seems to be in my head today 20 days from race day when life seems to be a bit crazy !

Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.