Friday, December 2, 2011

2011 Ironman Arizona ROCKED !!

Ironman Arizona 2011
It has taken me a bit of time to finally write my race report … possibly due to coming home celebrating Thanksgiving and then heading to Cozumel to cheer on the rest of the insane Z’rs who were doing ironman this year.
So here it is my race day report.
My morning started with a bit of trepidation… my swims since Mussleman have not gone super smoothly and I have had many moments of pure panic when in the water. I participated in the practice swim on Sat in hopes of just getting the jitters out however since I can’t seem to figure out exactly what it is that is making me stress my Sat. swim really wasn’t much help for Sunday.
Prior to the race the IM AZ ING group all gathered together for pictures and some real support. I can’t begin to express how I feel about this group of people not to mention the friends, family and team mates who came out to support us. You all made this day such a great day !!! Es and Jodie – what more can I say .. you are the best friends a girl could ask for I am beyond thankful that I was able to do this race with each of you. Dennis I will never look at Barbie the same. Bob I’m thrilled to be a part of Bob’s babes , Sally and Tracey your finish had to be the most emotional ironman finish I have been a part of to date !!!! Michelle Tucker you set the Sherpa bar so high I’m not sure anyone will ever reach it, thanks so much for everything leading up to the race , during the race and after ( you definitely got one on me with the gift from H and I really appreciated it )
SO – My swim : 1:49:54 ( felt like a week !!! )
As I said before I have struggled in the swim since June and for some reason when I panic it takes me a few minutes to get my head back in the game and continue. The start was pretty crazy , I got beat up more than either of my previous Ironman swims but for the most part that didn’t make me panic so I thought that I was going to be ok. I knew that I was swimming slower than I wanted and that I was probably swimming so close to the side of the lake that I was definitely adding distance to my overall race but I decided that slow and easy was better than freaking out and not finishing. When I finally got to the turnaround at the ½ way point I was thrilled but starting to worry that I might not make the cut off. I tried to see my watch to see how much time I had but realized that my wetsuit sleeve was covering it so I had to just hope for the best. When I made the final turn to head back to the finish the water seemed like it got really choppy however it may have been in my head but that caused me to stop and when I did the panic set in. My heart rate went sky high and I couldn’t breathe or calm down… for just a minute I thought about waving my hand and asking for help instead I put my head in the water and repeated over and over again …. Who Says I Can’t ( thank god for Jothy Rosenberg ) Anyway it took a good 5 minutes for me to calm down enough to get back in a rhythm and when I did I was all of the sudden freezing cold. My hands were cramping and I couldn’t feel the right one. My whole body seemed to be getting cold and I was thinking I might be getting hypothermic so I decided my only choice was try and swim faster and get out of the water …. So I dug deep and headed to the finish. This was by far my slowest Ironman swim … almost 15 min. slower than Placid in 09 but when I made it to the finish all the stress and fear just seemed to roll off my back. When the volunteer at the swim finish grabbed my hand to pull me out I knew “ Life the rest of the day would be GOOD !!! “
T-1 11:01(no I didn’t take a nap ) I was just really cold and had a hard time getting my clothes off and on.
The bike : 7:04:46 average speed 15.82 mph
I have done Arizona before so I knew what to expect and going into race day I felt pretty good about my riding so I wasn’t to stressed, in fact I just so happy to be out of the water that I wasn’t even thinking about riding 112 miles. Loop 1 was pretty uneventful and I felt great heading out to loop 2 however, at some point on loop 2 the wind really kicked up and the head wind heading back into town was crazy strong. My bike computer wasn’t working and that was probably a good thing because I couldn’t tell how much I was slowing down and I just dug in and got it done. Loop 3 didn’t seem to change that much as far as conditions but I was definitely feeling the effects when I hit the turn around to head back to town. Seeing everyone on the course was such a great distraction the last loop and even though I was so frustrated that I got a much later start on the bike than everyone else I knew I was making up time and my watch told me that I was going to be really close to my goal of a 7 hr. bike. At about mile 105 I caught up to Jodie and we enjoyed a good “bitch session heading in to the finish !! “ Overall I felt great getting off the bike and as much as I hate running I was looking forward to starting the marathon.
T 2 7:32 Better than T1 but nothing to brag about. Thanks to Robin I got in and out without forgetting anything important and with a smile !!!
The Run : 5:44:12 pace 13.08 over all
Although on this particular day my swim was my biggest stress, the run over all is always where I struggle. I have never been someone who enjoys running much more than 6 miles and I have never been nor do I think I ever will be fast buy most people’s standards. However, after riding 112 miles I don’t actually process the fact that I have 26.2 miles to run until I am about 6-7 miles in. On this day I felt great when I started to run. My legs were strong (for me) and my toes and ankle seemed to be good to go. I took off doing a 5 min run and 1 min walk and when I hit the first significant mile marker at like mile 4 I realized that I was running under a 12 min pace. I was thrilled!!! I saw Michelle about 5 miles in and I think she was even shocked at the pace I was going. Then at mile 7 my watch decided to stop working all together… no over all time and no intervals … nothing … I will admit to a brief moment of anger and frustration as I was really afraid if I got off my 5/1 pace to early that I would hit a wall. I saw my dad at mile 8 or 9 and ask him to see if he could find Super Sherpa Michelle and tell her I desperately needed a watch to wear. I’d lost my 5/1 pace but I was still running for a significant amount between walks so I just hoped it would be enough. Mile 11 or so I was greeted with a huge happy Team Z cheer squad and thanks to Rich a watch so at least I could see my overall time and figure out how I was doing. I’m pretty sure that I kept a under 12 min pace until the ½ way point and even when I started to slow down I realized that I was on track to finish under 15 hours. My previous IM was 15:58 and my goal for the day was 15:30 so when I saw that I might finish under 15 I was really excited. I decided to just keep pushing as hard as I could and try not to slow down too much. I think I was about 5 miles from the finish at a really dark turn when I ran into Ryan and Ed…. Ryan noticed me and gave me the push I needed to keep it up and Ed was completely engrossed in his computer so I am not sure he even knew I passed however just that one familiar face was enough to push me through to the end ! That and the fact that my feet and hips were killing me and all I wanted was to be done !!!!!
The last 2 miles were a blurr… I remember seeing Mike and he made me laugh and walked with me a bit and I remember splitting off to the finish and being so thankful but I don’t remember if I even realized until I rounded the corner and saw the finish that I was going to break the 15 hour mark. When I was finally able to see the clock at the finish ( BTW I can’t see well without my glasses so it took a while to focus enough to see how close I was to 15hrs) anyway I was so damn happy… 14:57:16 a 1 hr 1 min and 16 second PR !!!
2011 has been a really hard year and many days I wondered why I was even doing Ironman. Had it not been for the support of my friends and family on many a dark day and my work with people like Jothy I don’t know that I would have made it to the start or the finish. My personal and professional life definitely seemed a much larger challenge than the ironman many times this year. On race day however, the pride of fighting through the dark days and the AM AZ ING support I had was the best. I’ve been reminded often this year to even be in a position to consider doing Ironman is something to be thankful for. I tried all year to race and live with gratitude and I know in the end it was worth it. I am so proud of all the first time racers and how great they all did it was the perfect ending to a perfect day. To be at the finish line with you was the best!!! Not real sure if I have another Ironman in my future and if I do it will be in 2013. The one thing I do know that my 2011 Ironman will always be a special day that I am very grateful for !!!!!!

Monday, November 7, 2011

It's November 7th less than 2 weeks to race day ... a easy taper weekend spent with good friends was just what my head needed. This is the fist time in all my years of triathlon that I truly feel the need to stop the outside world every once in a while. I have so many open items that will require probably even more effort than Ironman starting in December and I am unsure if my just letting it go until after the race is the correct answer however that is what I am choosing. I just want to try and enjoy this experience and allow myself to be proud of where I have come even when other things are crazy !

Recovery and taper are odd ... you think you would be totally rested and felling great but it really is the opposite. Your still tired from the last few weeks of builds and your body starts to show signs of little nagging injuries. Muscles that have not hurt all season start to hurt and it totally freaks you out. I'm pretty sure it is all mental in fact having been down this road 2 previous times I know that it will all be OK but it does get in your head but it is still hard to deal with at points !

Spending some quality time again this week with with my good friends. I've been pretty lucky to have them this time around just to keep me focused on being positive and to allow me time to be sad when I have needed. My goal the next 13 days is to Be Grateful for the journey and all of the positive things in my life and not dwell on the things I can not change at this point !

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

- Just something that seems to be in my head today 20 days from race day when life seems to be a bit crazy !

Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

Monday, October 31, 2011





Tapper - when all your injuries come out and your just plain tired. So, it is so easy to forget what I felt like 2 years ago when I was tapering for a ironman and even easier to be stress about how I'm feeling at the moment. This week was our first real week of taper and for me all the aches and pains I've been avoiding have come on strong. My ankle seems to be the most significant of all. I'm hoping that 20 days of rest will allow me to be Ok on race day and I am planning to do just that - REST my ankle and hopefully my mind.






Bright spots in my week were a 1 hr and 25 minute swim in a VERY cold (much like Arizona ) lake on Tuesday. I will admit for me this year the swim seems to be my biggest mental block. I had a really difficult swim in a race in early July and since that day I have struggled more than once in open water. I know it is all mental and I think I may have finally kicked it but I worry that come race day I am going to have to work hard to keep my head in the game for the swim and not panic in the water. Thanks to my good friend Michelle I got in a good open water swim and was able to keep a pretty consistent pace for it.






PR'd a 10K this weekend ... hoping that all these PR's are a sign of good things to come. I got a 1:02:04 for many that would still be really slow but for me that it was great, very close to 10 minute mile pace. In the past I have really fought to get under a 11 min mile on any distance over 3 miles. A few weeks ago I PR'd a 1/2 marathon and then my 1/2 ironman 2 weeks later so I want to believe that all things considered I am really ready for this Ironman and it will be a good day.






My personal a professional life continues to be turbulent and frustrating so my goal in November is to quite the voices and allow myself to let things just be what they are until after the race in December. I know that is easier said than done but starting today that is my goal.




Looking forward to a 60 mile ride today that I didn't get in this weekend due to the weather and then a pretty easy week ahead.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Will 3 be a charm ?




This is my finisher photo for Arizona in 2009 .... it is the beginning of a long 2 years and it was a great day even with injuries and frustration for most of my marathon.



I didn't write down anything from my 2009 journey and I now wish I had because in reading my post from 2008 Lake Placid Ironman this morning I realized that through everything in my life the past few years I have come so far and that some days you need to reflect on the good to appreciate the journey you are on.



That being said I am starting my 2011 Ironman blog late in the game ... it's only 25 days to race day ALL of the hard training is behind me .... thank god !!! However, this year has thrown me so many curve balls that this journey may prove to be the hardest one of all.



The physical training for Ironman can be overwhelming at times and there are days when I personally find myself wondering why in the world I have signed up to do a 3rd Ironman.... what am I trying to prove and who and I trying to prove it to ?? Both questions I am still working on the answers to and those lead me to the mental side of training and finishing a Ironman. 2011 has been quite a long and frustrating year thus far for me. My professional life has been in upheaval since January and every time I think things might be settling down it seems like I get thrown a 100 mile per hour curve ball. However, in the midst of all the craziness and frustration I have had such positive and amazing opportunities that somehow I have continued to get up and fight and believe that it will all work out in the end. My Arizona Ironman is honestly the thing that seems to be going good 25 days from race day. I am relatively uninjured ( dealing with some ankle pain when I get to 13 miles of running but nothing I can't push through for 13 more miles on race day ) In 09 my feet hurt at mile 4 and I had to pus through 22.2 miles of pain so 13 sounds pretty easy right now.




This past weekend was a big one I did a 20 mile run on Friday flew to NC and worked on Sat. returned home on Sat night so that I could ride 120 miles on Sunday. The run was ok. Logistically it was hard as I had to start so early that I needed to do the 1st 1.5 hours inside on a track that takes 13 loops to equal a mile... I did just over 8 miles running around in circles (over 100 laps ) I then did a quick change to dry warm clothes and headed to the trail where my good friend Mike Beegen was meeting me to run the next 1 hour and 24 minutes... ( my friends rock )



Mike and I had a good run ... we kept a pretty good pace and I felt really good until the last 10 - 15 minutes at that point the ankle started hurting and I got a little ( a lot ) frustrated .. however, I had another amazing friend Steve Crawford waiting in the parking lot to finish the run with me and to thankfully give me some moral support and distraction !! I wasn't able to keep the 11:20 pace I had with Mike but Steve was patient with me and we got it done ..... 18-20 what ever the final number ended up being it was in the bank.


The bike ride on Sunday was a bit harder and much much longer !!!! The ride started about a hour from my house and wheels up was 7:30 so I was up at 4:45 am to eat, drink some coffee and get mentally ready for the day. It was COLD not much more than 40 degrees when we started. If your reading this you know me well enough to know that I hate to be cold so I was a bit grumpy even before the start of the day. Then I picked up the cue sheets for the ride and saw that we were actually going to be doing 123.8 miles and my attitude continued to decline. The first 20 miles were really cold ( at least I was freezing ) however I was riding with my good friends and we were joking and chatting and basically keeping each other from just bitching ... there was bitching but it was short and usually humorous. Thank you Becky, Jodie, Dennis (aka Barbie ) and a new friend Mark for being with me. Our fist loop was 50 miles, it did get warmer so when we got back to the car most of us shredded layers and filled up on nutrition and were in a pretty good frame of mind starting the 2nd 73.8 mile loop. We started off singing and that its self is humorous enough or scary enough to usually thin our crowd out .. yet everyone remained ( sorry Tracey Ford I know my voice is frightening ) anyway, about 20-30 miles in to a pretty hilly ride thus far the wind really picked up most of us were struggling to stay positive and get the ride done.. we stayed together in a group until we got to mile 95 and even though we were all fighting mentally and physically and were more than ready to be done we were still smiling !!!







I wasn't the best friend ever at this point mentally I needed to get this ride in the bag somehow we had been out for 8 hrs all ready and I was starting to want to quite Mark was feeling the same so he and I picked up our pace and heading toward the finish. At mile 112 we had a brief celebration thinking at IM we would be done however we still had more than 10 miles to go and it was getting dark and cold and we just wanted to be done. Thankfully at mile 121 I remembered a little short cut that would avoid a big hill and take at least 2 maybe more miles off the ride so we detoured and knocked out the last 3 miles. It was a long day and in the end I am still not sure how I feel about it ... ride time was much longer than I thought it would be but knowing that its done opens the door to focus on the big prize, the finish line on November 20th. So I guess I am happy and looking forward to the next few weeks.


I plan to try to put the personal and emotional baggage away for a few weeks and concentrate on the life I have right in front of me ... finishing a 3rd Ironman with a the most amazing group of friends that I could ever ask for.... I know there will be some soul searching between now and then and that I won't be able to walk away from all the stuff that is happening but I hope to put it in a place that allows me to be grateful for journey. I plan to write more over the next few weeks with the hopes of being able to get the demons out of my head. In the end maybe I won't but I think it is such a great way to reflect when the race is over and life has moved on. Now I am going to get some work done and think about what I'm going to eat the rest of the day.